A Motherless Child

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This the second night mare I can remember where I was doomed and left alone because I diddn't have the proper clothes to wear in order to go to work. this morning my mother drove off and left me to die alone because my not having the right clothes to wear kept her from doing what she needed to do. Oh, it was a dark time. It's like I came here by mistake and nobody knows who I am is. Nobody knows me. They have to do what they gotta do and hurry on by.

It's because I am not born of woman. This body is, and that why the mother of this body left and felt no remorse. I am is not the child she gave birth too.

I had the same problem in the Navy. I didn't have clean uniforms to wear on liberty. I spent my small pittance of chasing sex and drinking. The uniforms were usually white, and the sailors had to pass inspection before they would be allowed to leave the ship for rest and recreation. Many was the ti-me I waited for a couple of weeks to get off the ship, and they wouldn't let me go because of my improperly kept clothing. What is it with me and clothes?

This is not a very good morning for me. I'm in a lotta pain. I've tried to sleep to ignore it. I've slept for 18 of the last 24 hours, although technically I wasn't actually asleep all that time. I'd wake up and it's be raining hard. It's probably rained 20 inches over the last three or four days. Dark and dank.

It's late afternoon now. I meditated for a while. It really seemed to help. The biggest problem I have now is that I ate some meat and it made me sick to my stomach. That was the real reason I sat to meditation. It's hard for me to believe that little bit of meat made me feel so lousy. A quarter of an ounce at best. Wow!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sometimes_I_Feel_Like_a_Motherless_Child
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