The fireworks are exploding in full force now. I can hear them in all directions. My brother next door was down by the pond setting firecrackers off for his twin grandsons. I seem satisfied to sit here and reminisce. I don't have to see the real thing to imagine people's reactions.
I've been spending more time meditating and practicing the breathing techniques I've used since the Sixties. I smoked cigarettes for all but the three years I stopped sometime in the past, and the year and a half I've stopped this time. Not smoking seems to have opened up a more subtle pathway for breathing or it could be that I've redeveloped feelings in that part of my nasal passages recently.
I found a new focus point for getting my breathing to take the right shape as I first attempt to direct it to the right area just inside my nostrils. I imagine seaweeds flowing in the current around coral reefs, but the hairs just inside my nares are what really flows back and forth as I breath in and out.
It's important for me to establish an awareness of the quality or characteristics of the air just inside of my nostrils. Doing that forces me to breath from the right place. I can concentrate on feeling a specific spot in my perineum and the same thing will happen.
When I get it right I feel the desired feedback at the same time from both areas, and that eventually leads me to my brow chakra and then my crown chakra, and when the sensations from all the chakras gets coordinated some very powerful things can happen.
The only real and sort of permanent problem I have with this breathing technique is that I have a deviated septum so that the air passage I need for this technique is usually stuffed up a bit, and it can take forever to get it clear enough to not have to think about it for a while.
Sometimes when I get it clear enough then I don't have any more trouble in a session, but usually it will get clogged again, and I have to stop and clear it out again with several variations of blowing my nose. This particular type of blockage doesn't interfere with my regular breathing much at all. Just when I'm meditating.
I wanna explore again what happens when I stop my breath and my heart from beating. I got a feeling I'll just lose consciousness and start breathing automatically after I'm out, but it may be more complicated than that. A couple of days ago I got my breathing stopped for a while. It was fairly familiar territory. Everything seems to have to be just right though, to be able to stop my breath and my heart from beating. I'll find out in the near future.
I do not attempt to tell the God's own truth here because I don't know what the truth is or hardly ever. I try to capture the drifting thoughts that randomly appear in my imagination for reasons I may not understand. I don't know if the content I capture with these words is true or false. The Comments settings are turned off to prevent me from having to defend what amounts to little more than fanciful, sometime crude speculation. Great moments in our lives never return.
