The stress of whether I am should decide to go with the One me or the other can be a real drag. From the outside perspective the imagery of an innocent child in swaddling clothes might appear to evoke the Terror itself, because it's appearance incites terror due to the innocent child's absolute helplessness to defend itself.
"Religion is a defense against the experience of God." ~ C. G. Jung
I call so-me-thing imperceivable The Terror, and I deliberately capitalize to emphasize that I'm not jacking my jaws about a mundane event or object. Not to me it isn't. Obversely, it IS. YMMV. Aaiiyeee!
The Terror, like many or most other entities has two perspectives in my experience of it. It's ubiquitous everywhere all at once except for, IMO, one location. That would be Inside of some sort of physical body that can be animated into some form of life. This is the ultimate paradoxical model I can reach for presently. IT is what IT ain't, and it ain't what it IS.
For me there is an in between place/space I call by an archaic expression. It ain't archaic to me, but most descriptive of what I am is experiences as real/God.
"…true solitude is the obverse of true society." ~ Mac Dictionary
If "religion is a defense against" something or the other, including "the experience of God", then it makes sense to me to consider whatever a person defends themselves against… IS… God, to that person. Do you gnow what you act like God is?
I've spent a lifetime finding out what I act like God is by contemplating the defense mode I automagically go to when I am is threatened by overwhelming power.
Don't think for a minute that I am is won't roll over and show my belly or present my ass if (and only if) I am gnows IT can't survive any other way. I am is will not only do just that, but it blackmails me into grinning like I love it if that's what it takes I am to keep the body it currently possesses. It know my cowardice as well my bravery.
felixmanosperegrino has a Preferences Folder with a lotta SubFolders full of Scripts and macros that run roughshod over anything or anybody standing in it's path of the only way out. Only I am is has root:wheel privileges to that preferences panel, but it's Friend of the Court is me. Thou shalt have no other.
I stumbled into another blog I ended up bookmarking because of the comments the site owner made about the advantages of learning AppleScript. Ever since I started deliberately exposing myself to it's merits I keep running across how various people use it, not only to automate common practices, but for the sheer joy of making what might be a dull task actually enjoyable.
I read all those posts from the AppleScript discussion list each day (as many as 40-50 posts a day or more, but today, only two?) as meticulously as possible. Occasionally, I attempt to use the scripts the members post to see if they work on my machine, but I don't have many of the Applications they write the scripts for installed. Programs like PhotoShop that cost $600.
One of the side-effects of my efforts is that I notice when I use some of the keywords that are reserved in AppleScript in my normal writing. That was the original purpose of AppleScript. To use as much natural language as possible. I've studied and used a lot of these words in neurolinguistic programming where the object is to program humans. It's all related somehow. One of these days… ;-)
I do not attempt to tell the God's own truth here because I don't know what the truth is or hardly ever. I try to capture the drifting thoughts that randomly appear in my imagination for reasons I may not understand. I don't know if the content I capture with these words is true or false. The Comments settings are turned off to prevent me from having to defend what amounts to little more than fanciful, sometime crude speculation. Great moments in our lives never return.
