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An interesting thing happened this morning that caught me a little off guard. I drank the last of some water kefir I've been sipping at for the past day or so, and took a sealed jar of the next batch from the refrigerator. After I broke the soft vacuum seal on the new stuff I decided to add a small amount of un-sulfured molasses to the kefir to kickstart whatever baby culture granules may have slipped through after I strained the main kefir grains out.
Very quickly after I drizzled the molasses into the kefir, and looked away to put the lid back on the molasses jar, the molasses disappeared in the amber-colored kefir water. I picked the half full quart jar up and swirled the contents around to find the molasses. I found the molasses at the bottom of the jar. I could be wrong, but it looked like the baby culture grains had enveloped themselves in the molasses before it diluted into the water.
I let it sit for a while on the kitchen counter to let it warm up to ambient temperatures while I went about my business. Before I left the kitchen I checked it out again, and saw tiny carbonation bubbles were emerging from the molasses covered grains like crazy. I've been wanting the tart kefir to be more effervescent. Perhaps I've found a way.
With my vitamin D time out in the Sun just completed, I'm ready to consider the real reason I chose to live my life in such an unfettered fashion. I've contemplated every possibility that was consciously available for me to grok in that chosen moment. I can't say that I've never turned my back on some opportunity to more deeply fathom the nothingness of my ground of being. I too have sinned.
"It's not easy being green." ~ Jim Henson
The implied ground for my being is generated through a deliberate act of denial in which I silently scream to all others. "You are not me." I'm not sure if this dynamic was generated by an abstract system of reason or logic or a more primeval stimuli. Having to initiate a well-formed scream to jumpstart the desired world into ex-is-tense, implies that there needs to be an emotional investment inculcated to set the mojo in motion.
"Do what thy wilt is the whole of the law." Aleister Crowley
Crowley appeared to understand that nobody knows what you're doing when you "do what thy wilt". It's impossible to perceive the other's reason for their behavior without imposing your own idea of reality upon what they said or did. An immediate problem is that other people don't do what they do for other people's reasons. Granted, some appear to not have their own reasons. No blame. Why bother?
This imposes a next case scenario situation that revolves around what other people think they would be doing if they acted like they think you did. If they think, in their heart of hearts, that what they thought you did was punishable by death, in their world view, they might just kill you for taking out the garbage on one of their "holy days".
The real world problem associated with successfully doing whatever thou will to, no matter what, has to do with one's reaction to the other's premise that you did whatever they saw you do for their reasons. The response I've found useful is to accuse them of attempting to make me obey their rules of conscience, and inanely quote Moses like I was suddenly Charlie Heston..
That strategy hasn't always worked. Try as I may, some people won't allow me to gently refuse to be their victim. Sometime I've been sadistically moved to punch them in the haid to knock some sense into them. That hasn't always worked to my advantage either. Good to know. Rheumatoid arthritis in my hands put that tactic to rest.
It seems like following Crowley's advice to "do as thy wilt" is fraught with peril. Each of us are ultimately responsible for how we individually respond to wot the world sots before us when we take liberties with their conventional sense of things at the grassroots level. In most places, somebody gonna say something...
In my questionable opinion I sense that each of us has to create the freedom we individually need to do as we will to. With my eternal question being: What can I do to provide myself with more elegant solutions and give myself more wiggle room?
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