This is a very odd site that sends out strange pictures. I can't read the language so I don't know where it's located. It's set up on RSS on my machine, but it should work just fine if you dial into it the regular way:
feed://halbot.haluze.sk/rss.php
I subscribed to a couple of e-mail discussion groups that seem to be about philosophy. One of them approved me quick, and I'm still waiting on the other. I chose groups that seemed active by the number of posts over the last few months. Some of the groups I checked out had lots of subscribers, but very few posts. One of them supposedly had 33,000 subscribers and only five or six posts for the whole month. The ones I subscribed to had consistent numbers over a long period of time.
I like reading e-mails from an active group if it's a subject I'm interested in. I get ideas to write about here in my blog from the discussion groups. I'm thinking I gotta get away from religion groups where lots of infighting occurs. Certainly more than meets my fancy. I feel like I've gotten to where I wanted to go with religion. I seem to be able to defend my religious view against all comers. So, why bother?
I read somewhere once that the Druids had ranks among their wandering priests with the highest being that of philosopher. The one under that was poet. I think it's kind of natural to matriculate from poetry to philosophy. Things get too big to be held in the container of poetry. Not only am I trying to expand my poetry into prose, I am trying to decode it and remember why I hid it away in nebulously connected words and phrases in the first place.
Wanting be more transparent demands that I make my abstract notions lucid. Lucid to me for the first part. A lot of the stuff I encounter in the dream time feels right, but I find it difficult to put into words that can be keened by the sensory dimension. In my remembering vision, ninety-odd percent of the experiential material doesn't and never did associate with words or even an integrated language of any sort. You gotta be an animal with some sort of brain for that.
The particular vision I had that revealed all the forms of life that I'd ever made myself into as a pearl of great price is a great challenge to put into words because they were never entered as sensory data. Many of the first forms of life I created via imitation of other pearls didn't have any sensory preceptors like eyes and ears. Tactile associations were about the best feedback from an external input source was about all they could hope for. Are all sensory preceptors made from skin?
I do seek to capture drifting thoughts like it states in the header at the top of the blog. I'm sort of convinced the "drifting thoughts" I seek to capture with words are me-mores from the other forms of life I created through mimicry.
To say that I attempt to capture drifting thoughts with words is a way of stating my intent for writing what I write here. The source for these drifting thoughts might seem a little unusual for those who hold no truck for visionary processes. If that's the case, why are you wasting your time? I'm not going to come around to your way of ideating. I like being stuck right where I am is.
One of the ways these kinds of memores attract my attention is by literally seeing something like an animal I made myself into by imitating other pearls who were imitating other pearls ad infinitum. Whatever us pearls/curls do, we do it in harmony. If we start evolving a grazing animal suitable for a specific set and setting we all do it by imitating the other pearls around us.
Not all the pearls are within the necessary proximity to see what all the other pearls are busy making themselves into. It might be the sa-me species, but there's gonna be a lotta variation on theme according to where you are in the pearl crowd and which pearls you're imitating. the ones on the outside of the core group won't get all the nuances of the main chance.
The people of a more conventional persuasion ain't gwine listen to no cockamamy ideas like this nor should they. I figure you gotta have a calling, and that resolves to you being one of those pearls yo'self. If your ground of being ain't that, then you might as well go read James Joyce to amuse yourself.
I read this description of what a "vocation" is written by Carl Jung:
To have vocation means in the original sense to be addressed by a voice ... whereupon they are at once differentiated from the others and feel themselves confronted by a problem that the others do not know about... - C.G. Jung
What is it, in the end, that induces a man to go his own way and to rise out of unconscious identity with the mass as out of a swathing mist? Not necessity, for necessity comes to many, and they all take refuge in convention. Not moral decision, for nine times out of ten we decide for convention likewise. What is it, then, that inexorably tips the scales in favour of the extraordinary? It is what is commonly called vocation: an irrational factor that destines a man to emancipate himself from the herd and from its well-worn paths. True personality is always a vocation and puts its trust in it as in God ... But vocation acts like a law of God from which there is no escape ... He must obey his own law, as if it wee a daemon whispering to him of new and wonderful paths. Anyone with a vocation hears the voice of the inner man: he is called. - C.G. Jung
http://koti.mbnet.fi/amoira/jungvoc1.htm
Actually, there are two separate quotes both on the same page at the site I linked. They sort of need to go together to get the complete idea, but there is another quote from the Gospel of Thomas needed to circle the wagons:
82 Jesus said, "Whoever is near me is near the fire, and whoever is far from me is far from the kingdom."
http://users.misericordia.edu//davies/thomas/Trans.htm
I once saw a definition for "vocation" that opposed it to "avocation". A vocation can be concerned with how close one is to the voice that provides them with their calling. If the voice is heard as being nearby the vocation can be as strong a calling as that of an obsession. Terse, forceful. Whereas an "avocation" is a calling from a voice that's far away and commonly referred to as behavior like a hobby. It's a matter of how close you are to the voice that initiates the calling. Voca/vocal.
I figure the Gospel of Thomas saying (#82) is pretty much the same metaphor, but it's compared to a fire instead of a voice. There are a number of sayings in the Gospel of Thomas where the "Jesus said:"is about fire. Why would it not? Jesus, like Baal, was a sun God.
I do not attempt to tell the God's own truth here because I don't know what the truth is or hardly ever. I try to capture the drifting thoughts that randomly appear in my imagination for reasons I may not understand. I don't know if the content I capture with these words is true or false. The Comments settings are turned off to prevent me from having to defend what amounts to little more than fanciful, sometime crude speculation. Great moments in our lives never return.
