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After having lunch with my youngest brother at the greasy spoon I decided to go to Lowe's to look around, especially at the flowers in the garden section. I walked up and down the long aisles closing one eye and then the other. When I closed my right eye I saw the contents on both sides of the aisle like I have for a long time, and when I closed my left eye I saw the contents of the aisle as if a newborn.
When I went to the garden shop where they have all the blooming flowers it was truly shocking when I looked first with one eye and then the other. The flowers were a completely different color, and I could distinguish the different streaks of color within the main color of the various flowers. It was not just the colors either. I could see the filaments of the tiny flower parts like the stamens, sepals, antenna and all that jazz.
Seeing the world this way; the way I used to through my left eye, and the way I do with my right eye now, is not making me happy like I might have expected, but rather sad. I wasn't deluded by my blindness.
I just saw what I could. and innocently coped with what I could not see. Not seeing something because you're blind is not an act of ignorance. What I couldn't see simply wasn't there for me. Now, after the operation, I'm not so innocent. To not "see" something with my right eye would be to ignore it.
"... Where ignorance is bliss, 'tis folly to be wise." ~ Thomas Grey
Oddly, this makes me wonder if what I saw as a newborn with new eyes was as clear as it is now. Maybe this plastic lens is more clear even than what's there for a child. The artificial lens has UV protection. I might be able to see with my right eye better than I have for my entire life. It's no wonder I have always been the last to know.
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