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It could be that when people get old and realize they're returning to nowheresville via the same portal they entered, they freak totally out. That's my guess. I write that, however, in the full awareness that everybody knows everything there is to know about what happens when people get old.
Each of you have been watching old people since you were born. People cum and go like somebody you used to know. The "going" part is always ongoing, and everybody knows that. Just to repeat myself and make it even more lucid, if possible, everybody gnows everything there is to know.
How could they not? How could YOU not? Is it not true that every time you set out to find an answer to the questions life sots before you, that when you find the answer you automagically gnow that you already knew it, and always have. Everybody gnows everything.
An old acquaintance (one of the few left) and I sat here last night talking and talking about our mutual experiences over the last decade or so, and neither of us said one single solitary thing that has not been said by one or the other of us. For two or three hours, we sat together and never said nothing knew, and certainly no thing not already gnown.
Hell, we're both grown. In my case, all my seeds have been sown (groan...), and for the most part I live alone, in order to prevent myself from selling hope as a hateful way of amusing myself.
In my Bookmarks folder I keep a link to Google's Blog Search. It's for convenience sake. It's easy enough to go to the Google Home Page and click on the dropdown menu labeled Other, and find Blog Search.
http://blogsearch.google.com/
In the past when I clicked on this link it provided me with a random results page that included a lotta blog sites I might not think to search for. I enjoyed browsing through the links to see if some unexpected interest showed up. Now, however, I only get the standard Google search form, but for blogs.
Having the search results pertain to a given topic takes the fun out of using this search feature. I like randomness. Wikipedia has a Random button to help the user stumble across something new. There is nothing random about having to choose a topic and receiving a Results Page that only includes related data.
This morning I entered "kefir" to see what the bloggers are saying. Apparently there is only so much one can write about kefir, and many, if not most, write the same thing they read about kefir on some other blog. They're all the sa-me. Even my own entries here about kefir is nothing more than what I read someplace else.
What a drag.... man. It seems to be getting more and more difficult to fool myself into thinking I have something original to offer the world. Granted, occasionally I stumble across some seemingly rare opinion to opine with. The only-est problem with that is the availability of the internet search engines like Google to find out if somebody else has already claimed dibs on what I thought was MY idea.
I hope finding something original to say is not my only ground for being. If it is, I am is screwed, blued, and tattooed. '-)
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