I don't think what I "see" as a dreamscape with familiar beta brainwave characteristics is there for me all the ti-me. It sags into a Jackson Pollack painting until inspired by hook or by crook into "jumping out at me" as a comprehensible, well-shaped form that I can react to as reliably cogent. I don't feel forced to make it real with volition and curiosity (i.e., belief) if I'm not in the mood or for any number of other reasons that don't have to make sense except in a sensory dimension.
I'm referring to the hypnogogic stuff that dreams are made of, and I'm calling it hypnagogic material for lack of more revealing or appropriate descriptors. There may have been a nayme for it on the tip of my tongue once, but the cat got it. That damned felix. "Whenever he gets into a fix, he reaches into his bag of tricks..."
The characteristics I keep associating this hypnagogic stuff with acts quick like mercury, but just as quickly, this stuff gels into what seems like a solid when an abstractly constructed force like self-generated insight deactivates it via undirected conscious awareness that's scattered about by the solar wind like neutrinos newly released into the wild. Like the MM experiment where mere consciousness of the goal of the experiment alters the results. Movement and rest. Mulberry bushes. All fall down.
Sometime when I think I see something out of the corner of my eye in my
peripheral vision, and when I turn to look at it directly, it becomes an immovable object instantly. Like in the time it takes to shift from peripheral focusing to foveal focusing in the center of my power of comprehension. That's probably quicker than stopping on a dime or a New York Minute. '-)
All of this and that, and despite my distinct impression that this docetic force truly doesn't know of or emotionally invest in the notion that I am is has created a persona for the soul purpose of intently, pedantically, and persnicketibly observing it's unhidden, yet unperceiveable mechanizations, in order to mimick it's bold and unchallengeable non-decisions.
I finally made a decision about what I'm gonna do about upgrading the RAM in my present computer up to deal with the bottlenecks that have gotten more pronounced lately. I upgraded from 512 Megs to 2 Gigs. Fortunately my youngest brother next door helped to make it happen. I unsocketed the cables that make things go on the Mac Mini, took it over to his house where we could consult with the online tutorial at the web site I bought the memory chips from using his computer,
Neither one of us had cracked open a Mac Mini before. By following the instructions on the web site we got the job done in about an hour. We had a problem with one bent pin that was fairly simple to fix after we recognized what had happened, and when I brought it back home and hooked it back up to the peripherals, it worked like a charm. I won't hesitate to crack it open again.
The SSD I was gonna install got delayed for a few months. I wanna see what the improvement might be with the additional RAM. It's plenty good. It's faster, snappier all around, and smoother segueing from one task to the next. I may put off buying an SSD a little while longer. What will it hurt? The prices have to go down eventually, and the size has to go up just because of the competition from the major players coming on the scene.
I have two goals I wanna realize as far as getting another computer is concerned, and these goals are not necessarily intended toward future-proofing. Apple is coming out with it's own 64-bit Operating System. For all practical purposes this move will allow for unlimited amounts of RAM to be accessed. My Mac Mini doesn't have a 64-bit CPU. I could upgrade to one, but there is another problem. The Intel motherboard graphics system is slow. That's why Apple changed over to Nvidia chipsets and motherboard graphics. Because the onboard graphics can's be swapped out I'd have to buy a newer Mac Mini to get the Nvidia graphic system. I'm not sure of the timing, but the new system called Snow Leopard is supposed to be in it's final phases.
My other goal for a new computer is directly associated with SSDs (solid state storage drives with no moving parts). They're fast and swiftly getting damned faster. Not as fast as DRAM, but they're already faster than the SATA2 bus system can handle. Recently, the SATA authorization group put out the final standards for SATA3 that increased the bus speed from 3 gigs per second to 6 gigs per second, thereby doubling the bus speed, and it's still not fast enough for the newest SSDs. What used to be one of the slowest bottlenecks on home computers is faster than it's detractors.
The better solution to this rapid and somewhat improbable situation is the newest version of USB that will arrive supposedly in a year or maybe less. There is a lotta excitement over this development. It will be 10 X faster than USB2 that presently maxes out at 480 megs per second. The USB3 transfer rate will be well over a gig per second. What this means to SSDs is that they can be mounted in a small external box like any other peripheral and will furnish data to the onboard memory controllers faster than a speeding bullet.
USB3 will have to be built into the chipset of the motherboard or it won't perform in an ideal manner. The pundits say that's gonna take some amount of time to happen. There are rumors about just how long, but nobody seems certain. SATA3 and USB3 are prototyped and on their way to the sweatshops. It'll happen when the investor groups get greedy enough to act out of the fear that their competition will get the upper hand if they hesitate, and thus lose the entrepreneurial high ground.
When it does happen, USB3 will be the quickest bus possible for optimally using SSDs, and it'll probably be the most ubiquitous solution for personal computers which in a relatively short time will be getting incredibly fast and maybe even cheaper than the current crop. Buying a SATA rigged SSD now would really improve the boot times for both my Mac Mini, and the applications used on it, but in the future, the near future as I understand it, the SSDs will be built with and use inexpensive USB3 connectors, and I'd be mad at myself if I got impatient and didn't wait it out until they do. Maybe the new RAM upgrade I installed today will stymy potential impulse buying a little longer.
I do not attempt to tell the God's own truth here because I don't know what the truth is or hardly ever. I try to capture the drifting thoughts that randomly appear in my imagination for reasons I may not understand. I don't know if the content I capture with these words is true or false. The Comments settings are turned off to prevent me from having to defend what amounts to little more than fanciful, sometime crude speculation. Great moments in our lives never return.
