Up early again this morning. It took forever it seemed to go to sleep even though I meditated for an hour before. Yesterday was too exciting, but I might have injured my back doing some stretches simply because I could. I took a pain pill and some muscle relaxers and hoped that sleep and some rest might help. I was bending over backward to stretch my belly from sitting so much, and there was a real popping of some bones where it has been hurting since I fell getting out of bed about a month ago. I hope it was a pop that put something back in place, but it still bothers me this morning, so only time will tell.
I'm writing my blog entry early because I have to go to Fayetteville today for several reasons. The main one is to take the optometrist report to the VA Hospital Eye Clinic to see if they will help me get these cataracts removed. There is nothing about the VA system that teaches a patient how to get the services they need. When I realized that it was up to me I started asking questions of the other veterans and the employees to find out the acceptable procedures. Thats how I found out how to get the cataract procedure started. I hope it works.
The other major reason I have to go to Fayetteville is to mail some letters including a check for my property tax. I loaned some money to a friend right when I needed it myself, but he's really struggling and I didn't wanna feel niggardly for not helping. He might literally give me the shirt off his back sort of thing.
I think I must be nearer to dying than I expect. Not that death can be expected, Tibetan lamas not withstanding. Things are going too good. I went through two powerful realizations yesterday. One after the other about some long time goals. I knew that memorizing that 48 chord sequence I copied from the internet could be very helpful, and I have pretty much memorized all 48 chords.
The reason I was able to do such a thing was the way the whole exercise was set up. It requires that the same sequence of notes be played each time I move up a half step. There are only two notes in each chord, but the bottom note of the first note is the root note of for all twelve keys.
By moving that first note down a half step and keeping the second note where it is four times, it reveals the the major seventh of the root, then moving the lower note another half-note it produces the dominant seventh of the root, and moving the bottom note another half-step produces the final chord of the series.
I haven't recognized the relationship of this final two-note chord enough to name it by memory yet, but I know how to find the name of it using the Circle of Fifths. I expect to have it memorized in the near future by associating it with the zodiac which I easily remember after having memorized it thirty years ago. Learning a classical method of visualization is mandatory for me, and has been since childhood.
The other realization I had yesterday involved my study of AppleScript. What I realized was not only will I be able to learn it to some degree of competency, but what really made me ecstatic was when I realized that debugging scripts produces the same determination in me that editing my writing does. Sometime I take four or five hours to edit a paragraph or two it only took me an hour to write, because that's just the way my mind works.
It's the same deal with my playing with expert level crossword puzzles. I buy them by the booklet full from the large book stores like Barnes and Nobles in the Games section. I hardly ever finish of these puzzles at the first sitting. I work them in ink, so I need to be sure I've got the right answer to the clue. The object is to finish the puzzle clean without any write-overs.
I don't use and reference material to finish these puzzles, but it could take me a couple of weeks to do it. I force myself to intuit all the answers without any help other than my own experiential database to reach for the the answers.
I enter some sort of state of being by these sorts of activities I can't get to any other way than by meditating or by use of the sacraments. Now I've found two other methods of getting there that I have always enjoyed. I didn't have to learn anything new, just to realize all these habitual ways of approaching the world lead to the same highly desirable state of being.
The real convincer to me that the effort I put into debugging a script is that it makes time fly. There are only certain behaviors I indulge in where I lose track of time because I get so engrossed in wot's sot before me.
I do not attempt to tell the God's own truth here because I don't know what the truth is or hardly ever. I try to capture the drifting thoughts that randomly appear in my imagination for reasons I may not understand. I don't know if the content I capture with these words is true or false. The Comments settings are turned off to prevent me from having to defend what amounts to little more than fanciful, sometime crude speculation. Great moments in our lives never return.
