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It got chilly again last night and will be even chillier in the days to come. Why would it not? 'Tis the season. At least one month of winter is over. I expect it to be cold, and if it warms up a little I'm grateful. The dreary part of of winter for me comes in the last of February and March when I inevitably begin dreaming about it getting warmer because spring is approaching, and it doesn't warm up for good until the last of April. Life is strange. I feel sorry for the people who live up north where it gets cold and stays cold for four months, but if they're that dumb, it's useless to gainsay their bizarre opinion.
Just like a lotta Apple computer owners, I anticipated the announcement of the tablet computer labeled the "iPad" yesterday. I'm not so impressed as I thought I might be with the demonstration of the final product. They didn't make the iPad for poor people like me. They make too much money on the come for me to be interested. I don't participate in their media stores. I have about a dozen songs from an old CD I digitized. I hardly ever play the songs.
Apple never lets you forget it's their stuff even when you pay for it the hard way. Late in the game. Not including USB3 was the deal-breaker for me. In my opinion they didn't include it for their sake rather than their customers. Apple does a lotta things for itself instead of it's customers. They seem to be aiming for the enterprise class and leaving individuals behind. Why would they not? Apple is a huge, global corporation.
All this means to me is that I'll keep what I have for another year or so. Steve Jobs mentioned that the iPad will do everything better than the netbooks except for what it won't do. My iMac will do all it does and more without any further investment from me. The problem Apple has in satisfying my personal digital needs is I don't have many digital needs. Other than selling hardware and software they make big money on songs and movies. I don't do songs and movies anymore. I write and play my digital piano for amusement.
That's what happens when ya get old. In a couple of months I'll be 71 years old. That's not even "young for an old man" like the Sixties are. I'm just old. Not "really old" yet, but with all the indications that things ain't gwine get better without a whole body stem cell replacement miracle, it's not likely that I'm gonna get better. Aging is not a temporary disease from which my health problems will be cured one day if I eat right and get plenty of sleep.
I've never insisted on being happy all the time, and I haven't been. Happiness has an opposite state of being I call sadness. Other people call the opposite of happiness many naymes, but calling it sadness is okay with me. My life is getting simpler, not more complicated. It has to get simpler because building up defenses against the infinity of an unpredictable future gets tossed out with the bath water.
Not being moved by the entertainment media is probably the one attribute of aging that has really made it difficult to explain to younger people. Not so much to middle-aged people because they're likely to have already experienced the thrill of commercialized empathy loses it's appeal over time. It get harder to understand why I keep pretending I give a shit about what makes young people happy. That's for them to figure out for their own reasons. I'm not even sad that they will. In fact, they'd be dumb if they didn't.
The fact that older people don't go to the movies much was apparent even to me when I was a kid. It was also fairly noticeable that older people didn't show up at dances and festivals based on contemporary music either. These activities are basically about the sexual rituals associated with procreation like what shows up in the nature shows on TV. Homo sapiens don't have to be literate to feel and act upon the emotional urge that instinctively makes them wanna make babies.
The fact that females go through menopause probably has a lot to do with the lack of interest for them in regard to going out of their houses to media events like movies and concerts. Watching TV at home without having to dress up to flirt when they're married with children is not easy. That may be a strong reason for the current popularity for the TV show "Desperate Housewives" and other shows about aging women.
While for all practical purposes it's mostly old men and middle-aged women that get fired up about bluegrass and old-time music festivals. Country pop is still the sexual scene for young people it's always been. Once people get a little age on them, they become excited about classical music, antiques, and events that evoke nostalgia for when they were young. No blame. For some reason they don't view their interests in this regard as the begetting of the end time. They eventually will, in my opinion, but I'm still wrong occasionally.
I've just forwarded an off-list post to the Thomas group for all to see what had been written to me personally. I'm certainly not above being mean just for the hell of it, but normally I wouldn't have forwarded the post if the content of it weren't intended to control my opinions of her and the fact that it's possibly illegal to write what he wrote. She thinks this guy is stalking her, and his IP address was the same city as hers. I felt obligated in a way.
If what he wrote was merely his opinion of her I would have kept it to myself. People argue fiercely on this list. But, it went further and attempted to harm her reputation, and he could be dangerous. I hope that by forwarding his words just as they were written it would take me out of the loop. Fat chance... eh?
I constantly argue with this woman about the list/group topic, but it's not personal. We just look at the me-and-thee-ing of the Gnostic writings from different perspectives. Otherwise, I like her just fine. She's an excellent writer, but obviously wrong about her intellectual outlook. '-)
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I do not attempt to tell the God's own truth here because I don't know what the truth is or hardly ever. I try to capture the drifting thoughts that randomly appear in my imagination for reasons I may not understand. I don't know if the content I capture with these words is true or false. The Comments settings are turned off to prevent me from having to defend what amounts to little more than fanciful, sometime crude speculation. Great moments in our lives never return.
