My dentist helped me to eliminate having a dental problem as the source of the arthritis onslaught. That's what it was. It's happened before. It went away, and now it's returned. I expect it to go away again. It makes a real difference if I don't take the ibuprofen or Alleve. I'm also taking some other weird dope that was prescribed to me a couple of years ago from when the arthritis haunted me before. That was about the time the government was pulling all those heavy anti-inflammants. My doctor over at the VA got a little worried about the prescription level ibuprofen she had me on, and gave me a prescription for this other stuff in it's place. Propoxyphene with 650 mg of aspirin in it. It kind of knocks me out. I've taken two long naps today.
I'm trying to consider what having that more universal database installed or revealed in my remembering vision might have meant. The reason I'm curious about it is that I think I may have had a wrong headed attitude toward what I thought was other people's reaction to me looking at the world that way.
It's fine and dandy for me to take a gregarious attitude toward what I think people should be able to understand and what they may actually understand. I may have been giving them too much credit for their native ability to grok my diagnoses.
I'm also trying to understand what advantage (or not) having such a universal database at my disposal gives me. So far, it seems more detrimental than bringing great joy into my life. What's in it for me?
If there is anything in it for me, I'm considering whether or not my lame understanding of what having the Akashic Records as my experiential database actually means. When I write "Akashic Records" I inferring something of a more subjective order than something all embracing.
In my remembering vision, the experiences of being all the various objects I've made myself into in my response to the urge doesn't include all the things you or other pearls made them/your selves into. Just me. I do mean to say that what I experienced in that vision covered the entire time I've been on Earth. Well, up to the time I was thirty years old and had the vision one fateful night.
When I sit in judgment of an event that is sot before me right damned now, I'm not just referencing the experiences I've acquired in this one life time, but every time I've created a body for myself since I arrived on Earth. Billions of Earth years. Billions of lives.
We are not human beings on a spirit quest, we are spiritual beings on a human quest. ~ Ben J. Miller
I'm fairly sure this most recent session of coming to live on some planet and experiencing billions of lifetimes trying to become human is the first time I've done it either. I didn't remember those earlier efforts in the remembering vision that gave me the scoop on my latest escapade.
So, I have this fantastic vision when I'm thirty years old, after occupying this particular body for sixteen years prior to that, and this vision provides me with all this information about all the bodies I've occupied on this one particular sojourn, and here I am expecting other people to understand the scope or reach of what I'm bringing into play in our banal conversation about fairy tales and Jesus stories.
I know what to say to go along to get along, and don't think I don't go there if it's necessary to allay some other's suspicions that I may have gone too far. My concern is that many if not most others are only reaching for what they put together in this current lifetime to make judgment of the world.
How can I know whether they have the more profound database at their disposal in order to reach with me when I go too far for one lifetime to comprehend? I have a tendency to believe that the long version of one's history of multiple lifetimes as a conscious resource isn't there for them, and they think I'm nuts for suggesting possibilities they don't believe is possible for them or me. I'd really like to run into more people who have read Sartre.
I do not attempt to tell the God's own truth here because I don't know what the truth is or hardly ever. I try to capture the drifting thoughts that randomly appear in my imagination for reasons I may not understand. I don't know if the content I capture with these words is true or false. The Comments settings are turned off to prevent me from having to defend what amounts to little more than fanciful, sometime crude speculation. Great moments in our lives never return.
